Zhifa
A passionate young soon-to-be medical doctor with interest in writing and #HealthForAll

Intoxicating Infatuation


What gave it away? you asked.
Your eyes. That's what gave it away.

Day Five Fasting

Haloooo, assalamualaikum! The fifth day of Ramadan feels surprisingly wonderful during the last hours of fasting because I decided to cook 2 dishes today! Ayam sambel ijo kecap and oseng tempe! 
Bought the ingredients for oseng tempe yesterday, but I didn't have any chicken yet so I went to Mr…

Selamat Hari Puisi Nasional!

Selamat Hari Puisi Nasional kepada semua pembaca yang telah, sedang, dan akan selalu jatuh cinta dengan puisi, bait-bait indah, emosional, dan dalam, yang hampir selalu bisa mengisi duka dan suka di hati. Semoga kita semua bisa selalu menulis untuk merasakan, untuk mengikhlaskan, untuk melawan, un…

Day Four Fasting

Alhamdulillah, I cook proper food today! I made terong lombok ijo kecap for iftar today! With the guidance from mom at home, of course. Thank you, video-call provider service! I also have fried sausage and nasi putih, along with sambal terasi ABC to complete the whole dish. Alhamdulillah!
The recip…

Day Three Fasting

Assalamualaikum, everybadeee! How's every doing today? I hope you guys are in good health, body, soul, and mind. InshaaAllah!
I woke up this morning feeling a little more tired than usual because a particular part of my body was hurting, I humbly ask for your prayer for my recovery and health,…

Day Two Fasting

Alhamdulillah this second day is ahmazing, and by amazing I mean fun! I did some online meetings today and caught up with some reading (the book Dune, which is going to premiere this year starring Timothee Chalamet, Zendaya, Rebecca Ferguson, Oscar Isaac, Jason Momoa, and so on), video-called my f…

Day One Fasting

So, we're here in the blessed month of Ramadan already, alhamdulillah!
This Ramadan I'm cooking... because I'm staying in Wonosari on my own. I know, right? It must be hard since I've come to the realization long before this that I have no talent for cooking. Zero. Null. But your g…

Oma, my love. My darling love.

Innalilahi wa inna ilaihi rojiun... اَللّٰهُمَّ اغْفِرْلَهَا وَارْحَمْهَا وَعَافِهَا وَاعْفُ عَنْهَا
Ya Allah, ampuni dan rahmatilah dia. Selamatkanlah dan maafkanlah dia. Aaamiinn...

The One I Have Left

You once told me to stop reading angry poems
I asked you why and
you told me, "they have bad words in those"
but then I read you one of the angry poems
and you told me to read another one
and you told me to read another one
and you asked me if I could,
"please write a poem for me"


this…

Ocehan Sakit Gigi

Sudah berapa lama ya di rumah karena Pandemi Covid19 ini? Agaknya sudah sekitar 1 bulan... lama juga. Saya sekarang posisinya sedang mengetik sambil sakit gigi karena baru menggunakan retainer lagi setelah beberapa lama, dan tidak nyaman sekali... jadi saya mencoba mengganti fokus dengan menulis po…

Social Distancing, Self Quarantine

It's finally here, I thought.

I was just discussing the possibility of how Covid19 will intervene with my life, and other student doctors' lives, just the day before our dean finally decided to pull out all student doctors from affiliated hospitals as a way to minimize the spread of the vi…

When Corona Ends

When corona ends, I will go out under the sunshine more often, thinking of how it made us stronger, and maybe, possibly, thinking of you too.
The fact that I met you during (what I think is) the most inappropriate time, and having fallen for you almost instantly. Oh, what if it doesn't work ou…

Ob/Gyn rotation: when reality hits

During yesterday's rainy evening, a couple arrived at the emergency department of the hospital I'm working in. The wife was seen pregnant, the belly bump was obvious and they were bringing the pink book (all pregnant women who checked themselves to the clinics, midwives, doctors, were give…

Learning and Unlearning

There are so many things I do not know, and more I should know about.
Kalo hidup lagi begini sih, sering banget merasa cemas, merasa serba salah. Tapi jadi lebih khusyuk berdoa ke Allah untuk selalu melihat dan membersamai saya dari atas. Pada akhirnya juga hidup saya ini kan yang punya Allah, jad…

Pantai Losari at Midnight

I have not been home for 3 years and last Friday I decided to come home (bought the ticket on Thursday evening), since it was the end of my neurology rotation and it's also Chinese new year holiday, plus I have a week off before starting my Ob/Gyn rotation on February 3rd. 
Anyway, I boarded G…

Of People and Sentiments

Recently I have been busy with drawing, exploring the how and the ways I love making it. It also made me spent less time here on my blog... and I wasn't in capacity to write anything long, really. So, I guess, I made this one post to highlight my new instagram page, @ofpeopleandsentiments wher…

Waiting for The Trigger

I've been wondering about this for a long time. Why does one have to wait for the trigger to act upon something so religiously? Why can't we all be good from the start, from when we realize that there is a Divine power watching over us, owning us.