About My Work: What Keeps Me Going


I’ve never thought that I’d be praying so hard for people I don’t really know of, for instance I only know their names, their ages, their symptoms and their diagnosis. Choosing this as a career has been the centre of my life, especially this year. For every prayer I cited, I believe they will come back to me and insha’Allah to my family. Everytime I got tired or thinking of ending things, of stop doing what I’m doing, I always remember this verse from Quran surah al-Maidah, “Because of that, We decreed upon the Children of Israel that whoever kills a soul unless for a soul or for corruption [done] in the land - it is as if he had slain mankind entirely. And whoever saves one - it is as if he had saved mankind entirely. And our messengers had certainly come to them with clear proofs. Then indeed many of them, [even] after that, throughout the land, were transgressors.” ‎

وَمَنْ أَحْيَاهَا فَكَأَنَّمَآ أَحْيَا ٱلنَّاسَ جَمِيعًا


I believe that my intention is to save life and will spent my life doing so, Allah in return will reward me with beautiful things. Allah will reward my parents with beautiful things. Allah will reward my intention & actions with beautiful, beautiful things. Insha’Allah. But with every intention, each of us will be tested; I’m struggling again with my anxiety and depression; first time I got diagnosed was in 2016 and was one meds until 2017, 2018 was pure me struggling alone, but 2019 is going to be one great time of a ride so, hello again old friend. I’ve been taking twice the medication I took before, because my symptoms have worsen and my psychiatrist decided to add more medication to my list: this is Allah’s way of testing me and my niyyah to help people. Despite my condition, can I still provide the best for the people in need? Can I still function properly to study and gain as much knowledge as possible to help me help people in the future? Can I still spread love, hugs and warm smile to everyone I meet? I’m defined to do so. I will do so. Bismillah. Insha’Allah, there’s always silver linings in everything that happened in life. I’m forever grateful, alhamdulillah 😘

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